Hi nan It’s me, I just can’t believe it’s been 10 years. Been the house today to see grandad and took flowers down for you - obviously bright ones because no time for any boring ass flowers when it comes to you. I’m so sorry that things are as they are right now, I’m trying my best. I came to see you today I don’t know if you heard me and Thea threw a rose for you and said hello. I know you’d have adored her and I’m sorry if she was abit loud when we where talking - she’s the life and soul of the party, just like you. There’s so much I’d give up to see you again, to hear your voice one more time and to speak to you for just 5 minutes. A lot is messed up right now - and I’m struggling but know I’m doing what I can, Mum and dad are fine and so is grandad ... our worlds all connect. Because of Thea and tbh nan, she’s just like having you back around so I have comfort from that. I wish I could speak to you, I know you’d understand my struggles right now and it breaks my heart that I can’t just tell you what’s happening and why things are so shit. I hope you hear my prayers and I hope you hear my thoughts to you. I love you and miss you more than you could ever know 10 years is too long without you and I wish I could be with you now together again. Until then I love you till the sun is no more I promise to do you proud until I can do no more Hannah x